CAN I KILL YOU AND CALL IT SUICIDE?
EXAGGERATION AND IMAGINATION ARE USED
Now even if this end ,
I know I won't kill myself .
I have learnt to practice patience ,
as I know you are so bad at genuine communication.
So smart to not dial a number and not call ,
That how we solve disputes ,
I heard it in a while that let your man decide ,
Decide the way he wanna make this die.
So it has been a complete circle ,
Not communicating is the end
My ex just texted me sending me my old photos ,so wow
No I am not going back.
But I don't know if I am staying in ,
I am just a wall facing flat on my bed
Who hold my tears and my turmoils,
Every passing day instead.
I was crying in the morning mourning the death of my grandparents ,
Who expired 2 and 4 years , ago
Not weeping mourning our stagnant relationship ,
Because that's how we deal with our selves.
I don't like telling my issues to you ,
And you never asked me what is wrong with me ,
Whilst , you never found anything wrong within me,
Unless I am not expressing love to you one day.
Remarkable , I have failed to contemplate ,
Was I wrong to suppress how bad it feel,
Or am i wrong because I can't express myself
But I was surely wrong when I couldn't cuddle you that day because I didn't feel like .
But now I am like you are gone any way
And nobody would know if you lived happily or miserably
So why does it matter?
What matter is to survive or attempt suicide on a very fine day.
Nothing's gonna be permanent ,
We all are gonna die somehow
You would love someone else,
But it doesn't really matter for me now
I passed my barely non existent life
And that's why I am now a self made clown
But does it really matter ?
Death is our ultimate destined unasked choice for me, for a while.
I am gonna take nap in my heavenly bed,
Wake up and drink a cup of tea,
And trust me everything is gonna be fine,
Before I become the cause of next fatricide,
As I am an only child
Leeza
❤️❤️
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