IN THE STATE OF PERISHABILITY

IN THE STATE OF PERISHABILITY

1) Beyond life & death, 

evitable & inevitable, 

happiness & grief ,

 I EXIST. 

2) Always & Aways ,

 I exist, 

In the state of Perishability . 

3) Mortality cannot define me. 

4) I survive beyond consciousness, live through ideas,

& laughed through the pains of impermanence.

5) Peace is the state of settling the subconscious dilemma of being & becoming. 

6) Matter does not define me,

 nor does it create me,

 it simply puts me 

In form. 

Leeza

GOD IS MY FRIEND

GOD IS MY FRIEND

You & I are same 

He & she are same 

Us & them are same 

being & becoming are same

wind & water are same

kid & adult are same

question & quests are same

comfort & compliance are same

trust & truth are same

suspicion & fear are same

God & friends are same

God is my friend 

I exist in similarities 

But they see me for my differences , 

But I admire them diversity

I don't claim anything

But they claim me for my religion

I say I am an Atheist

But they ask me for my full name

I try to Hold their hands

But they jolt it, saying I am an infidel

I live in this land of love and loyalty

Where love is dead

& loyalty preaches to cut each other's heads 

They want me to convert

But I follow no religion

God & I don't exist separately

But to them, their God is supreme

But to me, it's my friend

I hope they meet a God like friend

A God who loves them & hold their hand

A God who asks for no prayers & no pennies

Believes in love & no loyalty

Believes in giving & not in taking 

I hope they meet a God like friend

Who do not preaches them to be a foe to other humans.

They want me to learn & practice Their religion

But my friend , who is a God, doesn't believe in one

We sit at our dinner table & talk

About my childhood dreams and my adult stupidities

He listens to me, but they don't believe me

They call me a mad man

They call me an insane, 

a maniac, a pretend ,at best

But we talk for hours & hours

They say no God is a human`s friend

But when I look at them,

 I see them as a God & as my friends

But When they look at me, 

they see me with suspicion & an opponent. 

They say there is no God except one! 

he is supreme & knows everything, 

punishes every body & loves all,

 but when i ask them , 

if he loves all, why he punishes all? 

They say because we as humans are sinners, 

I asked them , so do you follow his path? 

& they proudly cheers - YES , 

But when i ask them , 

how is this not against love & peace, 

why does not your God talk & teach , like mine , 

why does he threaten & fight ?

their faces fell flat ,

 But their gestures remain adamant ,

 They say he knows the best ,

 I said , maybe he does , 

but mine laughs at my questions, 

your seems to fear them 

they all got offended &

tried to frighten me from what would be my forthcoming fate , 

but all I could think off was that,

  whenever I meet their god , 

when he will come to punish me

I can make him my friend , too

& maybe , then , they would be my friends too.

I hope they meet a God like friend

I hope they meet a God who listens & not demand, 

I hope they find more Gods & more companions 

I hope their God turns their foes their friends. 

I hope their God helps them find more than one friend

I hope they leave praying him

& start listening to him

I hope they burn their one book & read more of them

I hope they can communicate with their God

I hope their conversations run fruitful like mine

I hope they sleep with peace at night

I hope for the next time, they meet me

They wouldn't wrench away my hand, but hold it,

 & sing the songs of love & peace in the cherished valley of Kashmir .

LEEZA

THE TRAGEDY OF LADY MACBETH

THE TRAGEDY OF LADY MACBETH 

~ Song 

......... Hmmmmm 

Hmmmmmmmmm

Hmmmm hmmmmm

Tall grasses, blind ambition

Let the vultures, in cognition

Speak in volumes, the king was sane 

His wife was a saint.

Rumors spread, in those times

I could see, her innocence in her eyes

Macbeth took it ignominiously 

Loving wife, cheating and lies

......... Hmmmmm 

Hmmmmmmmmm

Hmmmm hmmmmm

When he was out, in exile

Duncan was a friend and a foe in no time

Lady Macbeth could hardly deny

She had no idea, she had no vision of her crimes.

Tall faces, fast tongues

Could make lies, sounds so wholesome

They all say, they all prey

On woman, in characters of unscrupulous shame 

......... Hmmmmm 

Hmmmmmmmmm

Hmmmm hmmmmm

Mark my words, said the sanes

all white lies sound so honest 

all sane truths , are always known late 

Rumor rides horses.

Truth walks so patient 

only time would tell, 

who could we blame?

Mark my words, marks of all good faith die

 when a womens name is dragged in deceit of any times

She was a disgrace, she was a cheat

He killed her in sleep

& they applauded like he has 

Attained some commendable featttttttttttt

......... Hmmmmm 

Hmmmmmmmmm

Hmmmm hmmmmm

Rumors rest, lady Macbeth

Macbeth got to know 

It was sham, it was a game

He lost his love, and his kingdom

mark my word , said all sanes ,

all white lies sounds so honest 

all sane truths , are always known late 

Rumor rides horses.

Truth walks so patient 

only time would tell, 

who could we blaim?

Mark my words, said mark twain

"A lie can travel halfway, 

around the world 

Till truth is trying to put on its moral shoes of self worth

......... Hmmmmm 

Hmmmmmmmmm

Hmmmm hmmmmm

Paranoia of Scotland, crowns a coward

And kills the sanes , 

The word on the street, 

can turn someone sword in sleepppppppp. 

But all hearsay ,

all sentences of claim

Killed Macbeth, 

while he was awake

He wanted to die

But who could hang him on murdering his wife

Believing the nonsense? 

of 1606

Mark my words, said the sanes

all white lies sounds so honest 

all sane truths , are always known late 

Rumor rides horses.

Truth walks so patient 

 time had spoken in its phrases, 

but who could change the truth?

Mark my words said all good saints 

, marks of all good faith die

 when a womens name is dragged in any lies,of any times 

So he sentenced himself 

For life imprisonment 

Of persecution and pain

Paranoia of an insane

Turns a wise man an assasin of his fate.

......... Hmmmmm 

Hmmmmmmmmm

Hmmmm hmmmmm

Mark my words, said the sanes

all white lies feels so red, does so blue 

all sane truth , make all the great ends, turn incessant 

Mark my words, said the mark Twain, 

Familiarity breeds contempt

Love breeds suspicion

And power breeds overambition. 

“A man is a man after all

An alchemist cannot even overcome all his tragediessssssssssssss.”

THE END 

......... Hmmmmm 

Hmmmmmmmmm

Hmmmm hmmmmm

ALL ALONG ~ ( LYRICS)

classic montages , with day strained stages
i thought we almost had it
did we have it?
i thought i would loved you if you stayed
i thought i would love you when you were gone
you thought i loved you til` that day
but i was wrong
so I wrote this song to say this along
we never had it
we faked till death this
you never loved me
&  I could never assess this
denial was the best weapon only for young kids
we could not even deny this until
but i was wrong
so I wrote this song to say this along
you were eccentric
lonely lunatic
all my endevours of loving you ended
when you build your houses of does
to school me all the don`ts
poked fun of all my friendships
had no one to call , when you were stranded
i thought i would loved you if you stayed
i thought i would love you when you were gone
you thought i loved you til` that day
but i was wrong
so I wrote this song  TO SING ALONG
but i was wrong
so GONE ,
WHILE you kept waiting in my sleep
so i could wake up & take you , please
but i was wrong
so I wrote this song
pretty abrasive
for you to believe this
that I didn`t move on
that i waited all dawn
but you were wrong all along
but i was gone , i was torn
GO BACK TO THE PLACE
I DON`T WANT ALL THIS
GO BACK TO THE CASKET
YOU BUILT IN
you were wrong , all along
NO BLOOD & BONE
could undoe this song
NO BLOOD & BONE
could undoe , what you did that day

GONE GONE GONE
I WAS TORN TORN TORN
I LOVED YOU WELL
YOU LOVED YOUR HELL
GONE GONE GONE
NO TIME TO MOURN
SO I MOVED ON QUICK
& LEFT YOUR IN
THE HELL YOU BUILD
ALL ALONG. 

NOBODY LOVES A SAINT ( lyrics)

nobody loves a saint ,

I was told earlier ,

why did I have to change ?

everything at first place ,

nobody loves a saint

nobody got a say ,

who I saw that day

even in my wild dreams ,

I could never been

risking my one big day,

To not run away

selling my soul at ,

 prices of your insane

nobody loves a saint, 

they told me right away

why couldn`t I just say? 

I had an enough that day

nobody loves a saint,

 even the devils complaint

there is a half enemy ,

in everything you say

nobody loves a saint,

who build his cages for display

to hunt his captives on stage ,

For few pennies & pain

you sold their grief away ,

Nobody loves a saint

a saint who play with his vices,

 tell me your stories away

market the narratives

why are you lonely today?

oh my , demonic saint

why are you lonely today?

what makes you lonely, today?

nobody loves a saint

they told me right way

why did it take me so long

wish I could earlier run away

nobody loves a sainttttttttttttttttttttttttt

who dresses like a lamb

eschew your truth on the plate

why are you so lonely?

nobody loves a saint

nobody wanna be a saint

wish I could kill the saint

rebuilt the narrative of this play ,

saint is a sinner in hell,

who got punished till death,

cause he ain`t a saint ,

saints don`t exist these days,

NOBODY LOVES A SAINT

I SHOULD TELL YOU THIS IS LOVE ~(SONG)

THIS IS LOVE 

I should tell you this is love

i could sing this song , enough

till you believe me, well receive me ,

I could keep saying

I am in love*2

I could keep saying I am in love *2

I should keep staying, in love

I saw an old man , in the street

he gave that sweet kid ,a sour candy

and then he told me , his young dreams

meeting the girl of in 1983

I should tell you this is love

i could sing this song , enough

till you believe me, well receive me ,

I could keep saying

I am in love*2

I should keep staying, in love

I saw an old lady, in the lane,

 she has a bag full of memories

and then she told me , her fantasies

meeting the boy of 1983

I should tell you this is love

i could sing this song , enough

till you believe me, well receive me ,

I could keep saying

I am in love*2

I should keep staying, in love

LEEZA

I KNOW YOU LOVE ME ( EXTENDED VERSION)

I KNOW YOU LOVE ME

I know you love me.

I know you love me.

I was never a fan of endings,

but I admire them now.

I was never a fan of friendships,

but I like them somehow.

I always wanted you in my life—

always, even when I knew

that I don't love you,

and you've loved me all this damn time.

I have friends,

but you are special.

We're so natural

I don't even have to say it.

You are perfect in your own ways,

and I don't wanna see you yearn for me

or miss me too,

but I know you do.

I wish you well.

I wish you so well

that I hope you always remember

I'm your friend.

I don't wanna be your lover

or your best friend.

I wanna be your special friend,

forever.

I am not a fan of forevers,

but with you, they look doable.

I am not a fan of crossovers,

but with you, everything looks possible.

I don't love you,

and I know you do.

I hope I hurt you less.

I hope I find a way

to make your heart stop waiting for me.

But I really don't want you to go.

I hope we never stop talking—

at night,

or even in the early mornings.

I left all my friends,

but you are so natural.

Maybe I will love you someday,

but till then... can you wait?

I hope you don't.

Because with me,

tragedies are always part of fate.

And I don't want you to hate me,

but I really want us

to be friends,

forever.

And if I were you,

I would love me too.

But the truth is, baby,

I don't love you.

I know you love me,

and you don't have to say it.

Because I know how bad it feels—

loving someone

who doesn't love you back

that way.

I know you love me , 

and i wish i could love you too,

but with all of my chances, as a friend 

i wanna choose you .

I know you would hate me , now or later, 

resent me , for not loving you , forever

but i can`t help it

neither you could to.

we both know the truth

that love is a antidote of peace accrued ,

and if i have to choose, 

i would choose our friendship , i would choose you.

i am not a doctor, 

but give me that pill,

so i can fall in love , 

forever with you, 

but i don`t want to ,

NO, i don`t want to.

we both know you love me,

we both know i don`t.

don`t give me signs 

cause` i already know , 

that this is going nowhere , 

and we both are stranded on islands of fate.

i wish i could cure you

i wish i could really do

cause i know how bad it feels

loving someone & knowing that they don`t love you back ,

i know that you love me

& we know that i don`t

all i want to be is your friend

all i want is to this never end .

I KNOW YOU LOVE ME

I KNOW YOU LOVE ME 

I was never a fan of endings ,

but I admire them, now 

I was never fan of friendships,

but I like them , somehow 

I always wanted to have you in my life ,

always even when I know ,

that I don`t love you .

and you love me , all this damn time.

I have friends , but you are special

we are so natural, I don`t even have to say,

you are perfect , in your ways, 

and I don`t wanna see you yearn for me 

or miss me too , but I know you do.

I wish you well,

I wish you so well, that I hope you remember that I am your friend 

I don`t wanna be your lover or best friend,

I wanna be your special friend forever.

 

I am not a fan of forevers,

but with you, they look doable

I am not a fan of crossovers,

but with you, everything looks possible.

I don`t love you,

and I know you do,

I hope I hurt you less, 

I hope I find a means , 

to make your heart not beat, 

but I really don`t want you to go,

I hope we never stop talking,

at nights or even in early mornings.

I left all my friends 

but you are so natural , 

maybe I would love you someday, 

but till then , can you wait ?

I hope you don`t wait,

because with me , tragedies are always on the fate, 

and I don`t want you to hate me ,

but I really want us to be , friends , forever .

& if I would be you, 

I would love myself too,

but the truth is baby,

I don`t love you.

I know you love me ,

and you don`t have to say.

cause` I know how bad does It feel,

loving someone , who doesn`t love you back that way.

Leeza

OH GOD, LOVE SO GOOD, THAT I NEVER WANNA BE IN LOVE FOR LIFE! ( song)

OH GOD, LOVE SO GOOD, THAT I NEVER WANNA BE IN LOVE FOR LIFE! ( song)

I tried to get morphed into your world and then I fell into your disguise

I got blinded by that tall side, don't pity me, I got the karma of my choice

How long could we couple it, when we just both needed to jump? 

Jump in the, hell of the hell I did to both of us, 

Barricaded you into my sight & pushed you so well, 

So you couldn't evenly properly try , this whole time

 I was so naive, in my heart I build a blazing paradise, 

When I knew I would be soon burning in the pyre of my life. 

God damn, you look so fine, 

I wanna have you but not tonight, 

Can I kiss you, can I kill you? till we say our last goodbye 

Oh god, love so good, that I never wanna be in love for life

Oh god, love so good, that I never wanna be in love for life 

Oh god love so good, I wish I killed you before that fight.

before that fight

And then you called me, called me in and called me out

But I got shrunk in the look of your fatal eyes 

And I couldn't stay there, looking the our stars just die 

so I chose to go, go & have our love sacrifice

God damn, you look so fine, 

I wanna have you but not tonight, 

Can I kiss you, can I kill you? till we say our last goodbye 

Oh god, love so good, that I never wanna be in love for life

Oh god, love so good, that I never wanna be in love for life 

Oh god love so good, I wish I killed you before that fight.

before that fight

 

All those texts, all those love sheets burning by my side

All those emails, I wish I never sent you when I was crying

All those people, who loved you and hated me, all this time

Are now telling me, that , this is how we end up in life.

God damn, you look so fine, 

I wanna have you but not tonight, 

Can I kiss you, can I kill you? till we say our last goodbye 

Oh god, love so good, that I never wanna be in love for life

Oh god, love so good, that I never wanna be in love for life 

Oh god love so good, I wish I killed you before that fight.

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oh god love so good, I wish you killed me before that fight 

Oh god, love so good, that I never wanna be in love for life.

~~~ 

For life for life, for life, for life, 

Leeza

PRIMAL FEARS मूलभूत डर

1) The fear to pursue is primal,

 the fear to create is for writers. 

2) behold the Christ, let him die , by the Bible of being and Beethoven. 

3) Intellectual drought and intellectual narcissism are the two brothers of same mother, 

who is intellectual and of different fathers, 

who both are dead and desolated. 

4) Priest says to perpetrator - do you believe in God? 

As if he himself does. 

The perpetrator replies- I genuinely do, but I only believe in crimes committed by God, in the form of poverty, war, animosity and patriarchy. 

5) Garb of God, is blind, 

Garb of the devil, rest in his mind. 

6) PRIMAL FEARS OF FATALITY IS THE COST WE PAY FOR NOT LIVING FULLY AND NOT COMMITTING GENUINELY. 

Leeza

ONLY MEN DIES, THE ANIMAL PERISHES सिर्फ इंसान मरता है ,जानवर नष्ट होता है |

सिर्फ इंसान मरता है ,जानवर नष्ट होता है |

1) The juggernaut of intellectual association of our end, makes our end - dismal, lucrative, and ingenuine with the intention that lack intent , inherently. 

2) Only man dies, the animal perishes and woman persists in their attainment of Demise. 

3) Death used to fascinate me, now I feel it has befriended me. 

4) All my life, I have been amused by the idea, to Die, never knowing that life is a death's game. 

5) Life and death used to be lovers, separated by the God's decision , that one comes only after the other and never together.

Without life, death is not possible and without death, life has no meaning. 

Leeza