DEADLOCK OF LIFE

My mother said that you are scared of failure that's why you kill yourself on your table and I told her that I have always failed. She said you haven't

But the reality is that, I have failed enough in my eyes, when I was just 9 years old and then I decided I won't fail anymore.

And maybe I didn't, but I still don't see myself winning any time, 

 I think I have been trying to maintain the deadlock so much that I couldn't fail or win and that's the tragedy or trajectory of it. 

I won't lie about being average or just good. I know I have excelled but I don't know if I have made my mark yet. 

I think I have always almost lost before making a genuine mark and that's what makes me exhaust myself day in and day out.

I know I have been taken seriously but I don't know if I was ever admired for who I was, and actually I don't care if I am able to create an impact with my existence.

The de hyphenation of failure and victory is the most unsettling state of affiairs for a creative mind that reflect in non Binaries. But the truth is failure or victory are just the perception of worldly affairs and you can have both and still remain Unaffected by it but what shakes us, is how The world Around us sees us and the people around us treat us and that stalls us from PURSUING THE UNPURSUED VIRTUES OF UNEXPLORED TERRITORY OR VENTURES OF UNCERTAINTY. 

Leeza