If I could ever care less

 If I could ever care less...

Within the next doors of dormancy,

The love we all want lives.

Within the hearts of clear imbalance,

The hate we all hate survives.

It has been months now,

That I want to separate and end it.

But why I always feel so unable to do so,

Do I really need to amend my or our broken shit...? 

Can't you see,

that We both are dismantling? 

Slowly and steadily ,

And  completely ,

But still you leave it all upto me,

 with all my guilt,and all my mind.

Where is my heart?

Is it dead or you have killed it ?

Where is our love?

Has it ended or I have slaughtered it?

Where is me?

In this we?

Where are you ?

In this us?

Where is life?

In this love.

Where is space?

In this choking shelf that have caged me enough.

Where is my happiness?

Have you stolen it?

Where is your best behavior?

Have you lost it to my insanity and stress?

 Where is the real me?

Have I wasted it on people like you?

Where is the real you?

Have you wasted it on people like me?

Are these the questions that I always wanted to ask?

Or I am deviating in the feels of unfelt heart?

Is this the dilemma that I really want to deal?

Or I am misleading in the milds of our unaddressed feel ?

But don't you even believe? 

Don't you have ever realised that we both are already done!

We are just going through the passages of trying and harbouring,

This bygone love in the dust of escaping the situations instead.

Could I ever care less?

 So would you care more about it?

Could we fix our issues?

If we both decide to stay stubborn being all blue.

 But I am really , really really numb,

To feel even if you pushed me to fly or fell  me of through the cliff .

I have been really happy when I met you,

And It had gone to the past life of our unsettled disputes .

Don't we all trust the timings of our Glory days?

So why don't we accept the timings of our salty and sour ways?

Can we both stop here  off to the crooked cliff ,

And talk about our issues clearly rather  than to sniff...

Let me say it before and all,

That we both are not meant to be. 

Clinging to each other is not good for both of us,

Right now and ever after few years if we somehow meet.

Why?

Because we gave each other chances,

And those Chances turn out of our advances,

We gave each other time to resolute our issues,

That grew out to paint the picture of our broken hearts and unfed minds.

Everyone loves,everyone lives ,

Everyone become the one who want to try.

But not everyone can make it work out ,

And not every one can make it let it go that easily somehow.

But if I could ever care less,

I won't write a poem about our issues.

And if I could care less,

I won't narrate that the whole fairy tale thing have ended now.

But if you really care more about it,

You should try to bring a Change.

A change to cherish this charged up fued,

In a way that could end our issues, that has always been invisible to you.

But for me,

It is gone now.

Because Now I really care so less,

That In the forthcoming days i would stop caring about it at all.

ALAS! AFTERALL!

NEVERMIND!

You could go ahead to try for your fueds for sure... :)

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Leeza sharma