MAN-CHILD

MAN-CHILD 

 

Within the heart  stones of various severe cries and  confrontations

You always told me – why do I need to take everything so personally?

Wish you could understand my real personality

Rather than questioning my feelings so causally

 You say so many things and then you get out with all of them

Saying that –“ we all are kids”

Sounds cool, a twenty four year man calling himself a kid

And defending  himself being a man child

 

Like I was your brainchild ,

That`s the reason you called me a child ,

 twenty seven times  in wild

and then you asked me not take anything on me, wow , MY MAN CHILD 

 

then you called me clingy one day

and cried a river to get away with it ?

how cool  or how calm?

How foolilsh I was to let you  falter in my bruised arms ?

 

I tried to provide you comfort  in those ,

Being empty my self in your cries and  chaos

You go out and tell you your friends

“ why does she talk to me like that?”

 

Don`t you really know that ?

 why I really talked to you like that?

Couldn`t you see, I was protecting my self to get hurt again

But now I think you could no more hurt me , ever , instead

 

Smart enough , a sad soul, 

 a clear demeanour , you burnt my pride in your ego chaos

my self respect is too much for you

same as your lies are too much for me ?

 

you came, you cried and you agreed to all my conditions ,

thinking you were so wise,

fooling around , not fulfilling any one of them ,

you don`t even tried

 

I thought you were responsible ,

But I forgot your parents were , that instead

You were not careless , you were uncaring

You were a choatic monster , living in your west rat whole .

 

I hate to hate people, but you made me think ,

 was my past breakup better than this ?

the previous guy cheated me , but confessed

you kept me blindfolded , to your liessssssssss instead .

 

so I can`t help not hating on you

as I hate lies ,and you are the biggest lier , I ever met

and I do regret , telling you my vulnerabilities ,

as you chose to use them against me .

 

a pretender ,a lier ,a chaotic man child

fooled me for a while ,

but see things change and I know them for better

but I would always remember

 

once I dated a guy ,

who judged my friends and me  throughout ,

ran to his friends when anything slightly tilts,

rather  than confronting  to me in fields

 

someone who hated to resolve conflict

someone called himself a  child in defense

and call me a child , to make me feel bad, so dense ,

put his insecurities on table, when I came to confront my issues ,

 

to divert and dismantle me in bluff,

didn`t take my stand , didn`t give a damn

was ungratefull for his privileges throughout his life

and told me on our last call – what do you really want ?

 

trust me , nothing at all

but a breakup, not even a single call or text  later ,

as  now I don`t bleed red,

all I bleed is silences instead .

 

LEEZA SHARMA