Already left before the very last second why

 Already left before the very last second

Lingering in my mind,

The voices of old frozen times.

Finding it hard not to rewind back,

The rewired lonely laugh.

Stuck between my heart,

Left like a leaf of parched start.

Cut into pieces,

You were the gone dilemma of age old phases.

Within the happy starts,

Tied in the daily facets of light and dark.

We both tried to get back in the memos of lost left leave,

When we both know that if we went we both would get no leave.

No betrayal, No granted talk,

Just lack of concern bent with two indifferent hearts.

Salty touches, left with left open hearts,

When We met, we knew it won't ever last.

 Left are those nights,

Left are those days.

That we both planned in a hut,

That were made to fall out of each other enough.

So blessed to have you once,

So unfortunate to keep you forever.

So guilty to end it at once,

So alone to have the complete of me  even ,ever .

So dumb to trust even when I knew, 

It ain't possible for both of us to be true.

Blaming you and I to sue,

This left relationship for both of our happy goods .

Benting down to finally break,

Seeking up to finally simp.

Beating within to finally battle till last ,

Weaving vows to end it so vast  .

 Leaving the parched love ,

So she can nourish it enough.

Leaving unkempt touch,

So she can do this instead of me ,all, once again, enough.

White and greys turning to all black,

Blue and purple turning to green,

Violet and red going ahead to berlin,

Germane to the Germany , rather than falling in love with young hearts in early or late teens. 

Psychopaths turning to born without hearts,

Go, went, gone turning to lay, leave, left, at last. 

Smiles turning to tantrums,

No love left in my bucket of filling my temperament.

Why is love so uncared?

Why are some hearts so hard to repair?

Why are others so easy to be forgotten?

Why are all at the end broken?

Why is dead poet's society dead?

Why is love left society so left?

Why is my lover a lier?

Why I am so undesired?

Why is first love so hard to forgot?

Why are we left with no love in the very end?

Why is leaving the most hardest part?

Why can't we both mutually separate our already separated paths?

Leeza