omnipresent with me(a letter)

omnipresent within me( a letter)

 I gauge that when two people are in love they constantly have the urge to talk or chat or just know each other or constantly give each other butterflies. During the initial phases it is very well acclaimed to be in this and enjoy the honey moon period of this magical thing you call love .But you know what, your silence even satisfies me. why do we have to keep up conversations and talk about 25122020 unnecessary things when we both can work together in silence or be together with each other in silence or just sleep with each other or on the calls being silent?

I really don't want someone new , Yes I definitely enjoy listening to new people and their new stories but still ours is my favourite and you are the part of it makes me  "CONTENT". Aff course I want both of us to communicate but I still love the fact that we can communicate in silence being with each other or even away. If we both are together, a physical eye to eye or A call shouldn't make the other person available but even there absence even make them present within you at the very core of genuine intimacy. we are no more hungry for unstable butterflies but all we are into is that we are now a part of each other even without being each other. You are no different from my family or Myself even. Maybe in the other world we both can be two different people but now we are not. we are not made for each other but we are made by each other with time , patience , affection , love, intimacy ,warmth, support and stability.

I am in love with all your insecurities my love.I love the way you become shy or the way you laugh stupidly. I love the marks on you body. I love the shape of your body and the size of your parts. I love how imperfect your teeth are and how kiddo you look without moustache and I would even love you if you would look different in some other world or maybe in the future and I would still choose to kiss you for who you are! You insecurities made you who you are and you are no different but " perfect for me ". I love to hold your hand not only on summer night but every second and kiss you not only on rainy days but every day and every time.

I love how you are growing as a person and becoming a better version of yourself and how better  you are becoming while communicating. I love how real and transparent you sound when you cry on your bad days and How patient you are as a person.I love you in each and every way and I would . I am not writing this thing or making this, for a constant thing I feel I should do when I don't write letters or things for you but I am writing this to tell you that how proud I am to be with you and share the life we both are planning to live in the near future. I am writing this cause I feel like telling you and shouting in your ears that " you are perfect with your insecurities and I even love the not so good things, the awkward silences , the disputes , the frowns , the communication we both bring to complain about the thing we both feel sad about each other that make this relationship not so perfect and I love to be a part of this imperfect relationship when we both are working to become better versions of ourselves" 

I learn so much from you as in a person and I adore so much about you but the brutal truth is that I would never support you for something wrong or something inappropriate and you do the same. I would genuinely  apologise when I feel I am wrong , even when I know I can get away with it even without apologizing , cause as a person you don't deserve to be treated like that in any subtle way and I am  grateful to you for all the support and love you shower on me and understand my shit way better than me at times. Even when everyone had closed their doors on my face and have been unacceptable to me , you were there. you picked me and stitched me during my most vulnerable days.Maybe I never deserved that but you did that and I would try to reciprocate the same! when they say love is all about giving ,it still means giving the right things and yes you have even corrected me and made me comprehend the problems of my personality as an individual and we both do the same for each other not for the sake of showing each other that the other one is better off but only for the sake of letting the other one know that it could have been better the other way around. 

Definitely I love you for the all the advices you gave me cause they worked out and all the support you send me even being so far that honestly I feel if it meant for being in a relationship like this, long-distance is not that hard. I could choose to wait for you to come for a century rather than falling in love with someone who I can meet daily and you know why? Cause you never made long distance a heavy deal, we played it like this is what we have and we can't do anything of it , like our in securities and we embraced it.video calls, text messages, audios, phone calls, letters, late night closet and home tour , dancing in rain, making tea, everything happened on them while you being on the other side and yes by my side, even when we both were busy and lacked time for each other. Cause you are omnipresent in my soul existence now :)

yours Leeza