No less and no excess

No less and no excess. 

How can we both be trying 

If only I try and you don't even reply

How can only I hold you back

If you always turn your back, 

Over me, over me, over me 

Why did you say you won't let me go? 

When you have always let me run ? 

Where were you when I cried my eyes over these breakup rhymes 

And then I laughed to myself, saying this man is not for you honey, 

you would fall again for some kind, someone who would love the way you hype. 

You said my love was excess, 

As if I had a control over it, 

Should I manipulate my love 

And make it less? For you my December dove? 

Why I am standing for my September love stepping over my December one ? 

If December was my favourite month , now it's my worst right now 

Say you said, it's not always about love, but for me you were always lovely? 

How could you turn so lovely and back again the same black bird of my ghoshted pages? 

You said you love me and then you never said it again

You said you love me and then you never meant it

You said you are grateful for how much I love you and then you called me excess, 

You said I was over and then you walked all over me? 

Isn't it Contradictory? isn't it ? Isn't it? 

You said I never said I love you 

And then I started to do so, 

You said I always say a way to much

And then I never did. (Again) 

There it ended, see it ended. 

I did move on and I could move on

But see you are such a nice gentleman,

How could anyone leave you? 

When they have the option to lead on you ? 

My friends heard the way you talk to me

And the only advice they gave me was to leave  

My friends heard the drama and the trauma 

The recordings says that you made no effort 

A friend of mine said a word against you 

And i wrote a whole poem defending my love for you

A friend of mind called you out

And i lectured him two hours and eighteen minutes that he is the only one for me, then and now. 

But look I have lost weight and gained freedom 

The bondage for back and forth ends 

You made me feel so safe , love 

But you made me feel so unloved, back then . 

You said " I love you's should be rare"

But then we both ended in a despair

You still think of me when no on talks to you at lonely nights 

And when you have no one to share your happiness with. 

But, are you happy now? 

Maybe, you are! 

But, are you loved enough now? 

No less and no excess, just the way you always wanted to be? 

Are you lonely now? 

Maybe, you are! 

But , do you have space for yourself, 

No less and and no excess, just the way you always wanted to be? 

Do you still go out so often now? 

Maybe, you still do. 

But , have you found anyone, who wanted so much to be with you? 

No less and no excess( like I did) , just the way you always wanted.

You went to Paris and bought me a perfume, 

That I never used my love , 

You never put that on me , 

as buying was enough. 

You never say when I cry, 

That I want to hug you so tight, baby, everything will be fine. 

You are always in a hurry or a train where you couldn't talk, 

You called my cries excess, sorry for being too sensitive. 

I hope you found someone,

Who could love you the way I couldn't do. 

I hope her love would be enough, 

No less and no excess, 

As mine was so surplus…..