GOD OF LIMITATIONS (Essay)

GOD OF LIMITATIONS

“God of Limitations: On the Fleeting Nature of Love and the Consciousness of Time.”

Love is not ultimate . Love is not an end in itself. People say that first love won`t die or else, but to me even the love that feel the most right to you , is even not the one . Because humans are ever changing, you are not like me , I am not like you , and by tomorrow , we can be more different from each other or might be more similar but no one day will come when we would be the same , like you and me the same , we can definitely look same, think same , smile the same way , but our consciousness would be different , our frames of reference , our comprehension about the comprehension would even be different . but for me being same does not comes with the cause that I can find love within you. The actual issue with love as a feeling is fleeting , so obviously I can love you and you can love me , but could we love each other forever , forever here means till last breathe . 

I don`t think so, but can we long each other forever , YES , longing is ultimate , but love is not . humans have developed the tendency to yearn for the unreachables or the unworkables, so here let`s assume you and I are in a relationship and I don`t love you and you love me , so if tomorrow our relationship would end , I would start mourning your departure though I wasn`t in love with you. So I am not yearning my love for you , but I am yearning , your decision to go , or more so why I didn`t love you . some would even say that I have realized I have loved you back then but I took you granted , but that`s a sham because you are only mistaking your longing for the other person as love. Love is fleeting , it has gone , it has vaporized in the crystals of cosmic universe.

 

Love is not absolute , that doesn`t mean that we shouldn`t try to look for it. But throwing away yourself for it looks futile. I can love writing , but there are days when I don`t like to write , but I love contemplating ideas , but still there are times when I want to shut my brain off. So am I being hypo critical here for saying I love this and I want to go the other way at times. NO . the point is that , when you do something so often or you become so habitual of doing something so much , it looses its charm, thinking different ideas might be cool for some others but for me it becomes exhausting because not every idea does excite my inner conscious , like everything I write I don`t like that , but there comes a times when I actually like the idea and piece I write and it doesn`t matter if someone reads the piece or care about what I say or what my idea is , then that makes me love the Entire process of pondering and Putting it down on paper.

Now according to my limited sense of understanding Why one idea awake my inner conscious and the other fails to do it is because of two things- One is because of the conscious of the conscious . I believe our consciousness has its own consciousness — a mirror that not only perceives but also questions what it perceives. Sometimes we fall in love with an idea because it fits perfectly within this mirror; other times, because it rebels against everything it reflects.”

Let me make it more comprehensible for you- I think my conscious have a conscious too just like yours. So sometimes something resembles our conscious And when we Fall prey to such an idea which sits right within our conscious .We like it Or let’s say we fall in love with it. My second reason is the complete opposite of it because my conscious have a conscious, there are certain predisposed prepositions which I have accepted in some ways, Or I want to accept it but I am searching proof for them , or I Might have accepted them reluctantly, Or we pretend that we have accepted it in the society because we fear to be banished from it, But in reality we hate the acceptance. So when such an idea fall near to us, And is mostly opposite to what the world believes or what the world want us to belief , We completely come to shield that idea and start appreciating it in our conscious self . From there it transcend to our unconscious and then to our subconscious That’s a whole new realm to look for. 

But it does not end here because the possibility of admiring, liking and falling in love with a new idea can be Because of more causations . Like one might simply love an idea Because they have always been Questioning themselves about it all through their lives or it might be because There already exist some questions that each human asks themselves like =is there life after birth or Does God exist? You may even fall in love with an idea because that’s a completely new idea and I by saying that the question is even new, Like debunking the old , Repeated and conventional questions, means we are asking ourselves completely new questions with new hypothesis. My new question with my limited understanding of my self would be based on the idea that 

Lets say scientists believe that we cannot go back in time , but what if I question that because of this very limitation of time when certain events repeat or when coincidence happens, is time with its consciousness attempting to recreate its past because it longs for its past too? 

“If love and consciousness are both bound by limitation, perhaps even time — the canvas of all experience — shares the same longing for continuity.”

And if the answer is YES, then time has no limitations , it can go back selectively when it create coincidences , so the fallacy is, if time has overcome its limitations , then there exist only limitations of the mind or conscious or perspectives , no real limitations ever exist, its all exist in our limited outlooks. 

Here I rest my case 

Leeza