Anything related to you, can never be really true!

 

anything related to you,

Can never be really true! 

If i could drill holes in my heart to forget you, 

all my heart would be sewed.

If I could take my nights to sleep,

My pillow cover would make me creep through your memorable weeps.

I was dumb,

To fall in love with you.

You made me delighted for a moment,

But i never felt good enough in wholesome.

You made me believe ,

Forever are meant to turn into never.

You made me feel you,

With your voice in contradictory battles .

Love , is a word,

Spelled  just above.

Love is a magical metaphor,

That now look so evil  and trivial .

Can you take me back to may?

Where I could say.

To myself at first-place,

Don't talk to this Boy .

Can you revert back this wasted year of mine?

What I did to myself,

Was a complete torture to my body and soul,

 being sane I Coloured my painted picture of flames to fuel and turmoil.

Yes I could see,

Maybe I could not .

But yes I could guess,

We were never meant to turn into us.

You said , it's so difficult,

Now I hope you must have said that it would be never  possible.

You said, we are so far,

Now I hope you must say that tangible Love is only pure .

My fucking emotions overflow,

And I write only when it comes to you.

I write only about you,

Now my poetic diary is even fed up of you.

But I never get too fed up,

So stupid of me.

That I can never see,

That you were a disguised harm, with no warning alarm.

You were crap wrapped in class,

You were harm , faking warm.

You were insecurity hiding behind ingenuity.

You were lethal, looking like the most miraculous thing ever happened to me.

A MODESTY!

HONESTLY!

Like a facade of CATASTROPHE !

EPIPHACY!

A MISTAKE of millennium !

APATHY!

APATHY!

APATHY!

Now at 2:13 am ,

I am telling an another boy, how much I miss you?

And My best friend why i wanna forgot you?

But look, how helpless!I have become,not to do so.

But maybe when I will grow up,

And remember  those insomniac nights.

When I could not  sleep thinking about you,

I would really be happy to let you go,You would then become my happiest Goodbye....

I can say you were mean ,

But i can't still figure out if you never really cared?

Or if I were  somewhere wrong?

Or if it was you who was testing me through the  storms?

But Baby, I failed .

Yes , I did.

My competitive spirit died,

When you were not interested in telling me the reasons and redemptions Behind those dreary eyes.

You used to say ASSUMPTIONS,

And now I have to make one, For you .

And That is - every single thing you said to me looking in my earnest eyes,

Was A LIE!

A LETHAL LIE!

Leeza  (2:39 am, _7th December , 2020_ )

HOLY SHIT