You are not my priority anymore, like you had been before

 You are not my priority anymore, like you had been before

It was a long road,

So I don't wanna stop.

Don't wanna go back, 

And take another one , I saw the angel of attack.

You said yes to go,

But you were busy driving and tracking way alone.

And then you found another passenger to move on,

And I was left alone.

See , see my love ,

I have fallen enough.

I am alone and bewildered,

But you were engaged  and lingered.

Boy, you left me for her,

Like you know I don't know what was going on ?

The merrymaking  and the match making,

The versatile betrayal planning.

Wasn't it?

She was always on your mind,

Even when you talk to me at early morning or at late nights.

She was encapsulated in the phase of best friend,

The traumas you dealt with.

She never treated you like I did,

Iike the priority of summer sight and winter rift.

She never accepted you as your lover, for sure,

Like you never accepted me yours ...

But still I loved you,

In your dark , at your worst.

But you did wrong with me , ever- since we met,

As your heart was bereft, an empty place made up of metal, instead. 

But I assumed i would melt it down with my love,

Everyone warned me that he was a mistake.

My mom called him a threat, 

My dad asked me not to trust you, so correct he was.

My sister said, you never loved me instead,

My best friend asked me to get over him, and move ahead. 

Now I wail sometimes criss- crossed my fingers , legs spread , sitting beside the bed,

All love has ended , after you , My heart was dead.

And now I hear people saying,

That you just smile and sit with another girl , every week.

Maybe your first love have never welcomed you with open hugs and kisses,

But what you did to your second made you , so closely distant.

NON - EXISTENCE

And you ain't my priority ,

Like i used to say before.

That you were the best thing ever happened to me ,

And I never felt the way I feel about you, so let it be.

But you let it bend,

And now you have broken it apparently.

First you were like, i am always here for you,

And now I am like, you were even then, no- where.

WHAT A LIE!

INVISIBLE TO ME ! 

LACK OF TRUTH!

UNFEASABLE TO ME!

Your words were untrue,

Your care was dearth.

You showed me the utopia,

You wanted to give birth.

But when priorities change ,

One becomes clear .

NO - ASSUMPTIONS , 

Nothing could now break me into tear.

NO - DISGRACE

Nothing as bad as you I ever faced.

NO - MENDICANCY

Nothing I would ever fancy.

NO - LIES

Nothing to befool me anymore, I am now.more than  wise.

You were  my May mistake,

But you bought jocularity in june.

That summer noon of 1st July, I ruined,

And I was addicted to your love in august.

Then stability came in september,

Less talk and more to work.

October made me optimistic ,

And November made me numb.

And now I feel,

You were a bruised man .

Who need sympathy ,

Rather than my love .

So lemme plant the seed of the burial,

Of the mammoth injury and insult I did to myself.

Cause now I know, 

You never deserved me.

I KNOW YOUR WORTH!

So priorities have changed ,

And I feel so happy and better.

Nothing to prioritise , 

Except my SELF WORTH!

Leeza