VULNERABILITY~ Lyrics

VULNERABILITY

ahh, ahhhh , ahhh , ahhh

lalal , allla , lalla , alalla 

I know what art is , but I don`t make any of this 

I know what cool is , but I ain`t any of this 

I know where my heart is , & it is not with me ,

all I ever do is vulnerability 

in the kind of way , it fucks everybody all I ever do is vulnerability 

in the kind of way , it sucks to be me

all my friends , try to never excuse me , for my vulnerability 

god I hate all of my friends , nobody gets me , 

I get it , I get it , I get , none of them been slit this deep

but I can tell you , that its just the projection of my intellectual grief 

ahh, ahhhh , ahhh , ahhh

lalal , allla , lalla , alalla 

I know what success is , but I don`t feel it 

I know what sleep is , but I haven`t been in it

I know what love is , but I haven`t been loved ever for my vulnerability

they like me because of my quirks & marks & because i am a girl or cause` of my vocabulary 

nobody knows , sometimes all I wanna do Is scratch my face

I hate the eyes I have , and my short hair make me look pathetic 

my thighs too big & my body hair are just too much , just like my vulnerability 

all day , all nights , even in afternoons 

all eves , all times , even in midnights 

I sit in the bucket of insufferable , obnoxious , perpetual guilt , 

of dying from not walking straight , of falling in puddle of hate,

but one thing I do very well , is always , vulnerability till eternity

 vulnerability , feeling too much , feeling too less, lacking the warmth of a genuine human

till I start telling how I felt , I feel , how I just wanna be , 

and than one of my friend would give me life lessons 

on how I should not be an emo brat , 

I guess all of this bitch heads , suck at , vulnerability , vulnerability , a tragedy

i can`t ever do vulnerability with anyone except me .

ahh, ahhhh , ahhh , ahhh

lalal , allla , lalla , alalla 

I know what art is , but I don`t make any of this 

I know what cool is , but I ain`t any of this 

I know where my heart is , & it is not with me ,

all I ever do is vulnerability 

in the kind of way , it fucks everybody all I ever do is vulnerability 

in the kind of way , it sucks to be me

all my friends , try to never excuse me , for my vulnerability 

god I hate all of my friends , nobody gets me , 

I get it , I get it , I get , none of them been slit this deep

but I can tell you , that its just the projection of my intellectual grief

but if loss is an intellectual grief & I feel half empty to feel again

its because of the people like my friends & maybe even because of me 

who have circumcised their emotions to feel & never express it with that diligency

or maybe I am filled with a lot of rage & self Delinquency

fuck my friends , fuck my exes, fuck myself , fuck vulnerability none of us gets to be human , but behave like artificial intelligence , before there would be only artificiality left in humanity

nobody gets to do vulnerability like me , nobody gets to do vulnerability like its true

fuck my vulnerability , why I feel so much for people who are emotionally defunct 

no man is an island , all woman like me should be put in mental asylum

with pen & paper to do poetry , till they crash out of insufferable vulnerability 

and get better halved by the last lonely vulnerable tree,

 who could get the weight of their long hair & mirror their irrevocable vulnerability, so they can smile & stare at the essence of humanity .