21ST CENTURY ~ Lyrics

21ST CENTURY ~ Lyrics

I used to cool in an intimidating way

now I can no more even intimidate my nervous system

I used to play fool till the tenth grade

now I can no more even fool my boyfriend`s sister

I used to go to school , till pandemic hit us

now I can`t hit evem the roadway 

I used to have crush on three boys all the times

now all I wanna crush is my overthinking brain & my therapy sessions 

I used to feel sad , when someone used to bully me

now all I feel is angst being a teen trapped in adult body 

I used to pretend & play , for years till I was the one

now all I do is lament & lay , waiting for the year, when I will die , casually.

all of my peers are doing , something unworthwhile

while I am doing , nothing at all

why my break is never even an escape ?

all of my knowns are just , being employed , 

while I am hoping to die 

why my hopes are even just surviving till today ?

I think , I took , “one day at a time , just too literally”

but then all of my weeks are just the same 

I think I am living the same year on repeat, since covid 

 since the last 6 years & 2712 days in hostage 

even my birthdays , are just eventless cakes .

I even don`t see a point In being cool, anymore 

I don`t see a point in succeeding , in a cruel way

I don`t see a point finding the love of your life, with half open lids

bill Clinton , was right , when he said –“ it’s the economy, stupid”

I even don`t see a point in being depressed , for long 

I don`t find it amusing to talk about politics , even though I am opinionated

I don`t have the energy left in me , to criticize the institutions 

I think , the system has corrupted my anatomy 

Socrates got it all wrong , maybe cause he wasn`t born in 21st century 

it is not better to be a Socrates dissatisfied , than being a fool satisfied , 

till the only thing left is to cry & die , 

I don`t wanna be Socrates , I wanna be a fool , I wanna be a fucking human

[is there a way , to unread my books & make me none of the kind?

say yes, even if it is a lie.}

I used to play it cool , as a hearsay 

but now being not on social media , is gay 

I used to have a phone to call my friends 

till my friends started texting me , about downloading linkedin.

I used to write for fun , till I have to make a site

and make something real out of all of my hobbies

I used to rhyme as someone is holding a gun underneath my face

now all of my vocabulary is making me placid 

I used to never go out , unless with my family 

now my family does not go out , till its someone`s wedding near distance 

I guess , we are not very outgoing people anyway

I guess, we love to laze off our depression , till we lay .

all of my peers are dating , someone unworthwhile

while I am dating , myself 

why my break is never even an escape ?

all of my knowns are just , being married off, 

while I am hoping to divorce my life , 

why my hopes are even just surviving till today ?

I think , I took , “one day at a time , just too literally”

but then all of my months are just the same 

I think I am living the same year on repeat, 

since trump got 1st elected 

 since the last 10 years & 3500 days playing façade 

8 nov , 2016 , the same day our currency got changed 

I even don`t see a point In being political , anymore 

I don`t see a point in creating , in a cruel way

I don`t see a point in celebrating self awareness day , with half open lids

bill Clinton , was right , when he said –“ it’s the economy, stupid”

I even don`t see a point in being caught in mayhem , for long 

I don`t find it amusing to talk about my love life , I don`t have one 

I don`t have the energy left in me , to criticize my exes

I think ,the movies has corrupted my anatomy 

Socrates got it all correct , maybe he could forsee the future  

 “Wonder is the beginning of wisdom”

till my wisdom made me wonder about dying 

“The only true wisdom is in knowing you know nothing”

but I guess I know , my future is in my hands ,

but my hands are in my pants 

[is there a way , to not crave touch , or regret about being a slut , 

say yes, I am going nuts }