He vibed completely, when I right swiped

 He vibed completely,

When I right swiped accidentally...

I had been the type of girl,

Who did not beleive in love.

I beleive in crushes and infactuations,

And I seek rushes through situations.

I had been the type of girl who talk to 20 boys at one time...

But still had no one,

When she is alone, to call her mine...

And than in that summer afternoon,

Of blazing heat and sunlight.

You came like any other not so common exception,

I felt some extra ordinary connection.

I thought it was a crush,

I was attracted.

And it would end ,

But it never really did.

I talked to my best friends for weeks,

Conveincing him and I,

That you were not meant to be mine.

You are far,

Like the star of vintage car.

The differential equation and "X" of maths,

That are never meant be solved,

 until the Romans are dead.

A satisfactory conversation,

And the sea waves were taken.

Beneath the summer moon,

And the summer light,

Embracing.

I was impatience,

You were courage.

I was cold and hastening,

But you were modest and calm.

I was energy and exuberance,

But you were logic and silence.

I was fire in every rage of turbulence,

But you were sweet and courteous.

A good friend told me , that

"I was in love."

But still I denied,

Even love is not enough.

Another friend asked me,

To remain true to my feelings.

But another just told me,

To proceed with what makes me happy and gives me joy.

I tried to google the facts and fiction,

I rummaged through every fun and fake love conviction.

I try to address myself that it would end,

I tried to make belief that it is not love and let's just remain friends.

I tried to disguise and defend.

I tried to misinterpret my feelings and comprehend,

I try to type and not tilt back,

I tried to forget you with all my instincts that I lack.

My gut feels happy,

When I talk to you.

And my heart literally dances,

But my mind reverses back,

Saying ' No, No' and again start to affect and put me aback.

I criss Crossed my palms and try to look through our history,

If you are even the one for me?

Or still you are a mistery.

And I really don't know why he is the one?

And I still doubt about it,

But if he won't be the one.

Who else would be ?

Am I so loud about it?

But when the summer months have gone,

And the rainy season arrives,

We both again vibed.

On the first day of July, 

I confessed around 4:30, I was perplexed.

He asked me if it was a prank?

I told him that " I was In love with him" 

He is the one , I idioloze ,and he makes me feel like the daylight sun in the deadly winter sky...

He didn't believe me for sure,

He just said  I was the one he  adore.

He still doesn't beleive in love,

And saying it all  ,love is a big word to be said, as of then.

It has been four months now,

And maybe it would move like that.

So flawless , so wow.

But maybe it would all end .

These are the times of breath taking detachment,

One day I want  to meet you.

I believe, that there would be a happy ending,

But I really don't want it to end this way.

I don't know ,

 but I was not the girl, 

Who falls in love with every one .

My heart had a space left behind,

But it is not taken .

we are not in any relationship ,

and maybe we won't ever be coupled together .

 But it won't change the way I feel about you,

Or the way it made me beleive that love is true .

Or the way we sometimes argue,

Now, not tomorrow at winter night or summer's blue.

You might marry someone else someday, and have children calling you daddy

And I might dance with some one else , kissing someone another day 

But still it won't vibe that way ,

All I could ever say...

You might intertwine your finger with another lady in other town and look through her eyes,

But the things we share would never loose to dust or lies.

My mother was asking me about the birthday gift I want,

For 18th of my birthday in the forthcoming month.

But I won't tell her 

As if she would be able to give me what I want the most,

Yes it's you love, once for all ,at every front.

Let me just state it once again ,

That the love I feel for you.

And the love I promise was nothing I felt,

at any premise.

The care I do and the trust I expect in return ,

The freedom I give and the respect I earn.

From you can never Be compared to anyone.

Genuinely , seriously and truthfully through the whole lot in turn.

You and I are two souls,

Spread apart like detached coils.

You and I are meant to be together .

But you and I are complicated forever,

It is not easy, its so tough.

Its not convenient , but when it would be well deserved.

It is petryfying to stay apart,

But it is traumatic to meet  one day , but than never meet again and depart.

Now, I look through the glass of my window ,

Hoping you would come and go.

Now I hope it would come one day and stay,

Because I believe in love now, anyway.

I can wait for the right time,

Through the draconian storms and dreary nights.

I can state you one fact, that even if I won't be yours  in this lifetime.

I would be sitting for you waiting,

 right there in the next life to make you mine.

And I hope you would look through my eyes,

And play me the guitar beneath the stars .

Sitting beside  this sky and say,

I love you, I would be thankful that we met  finally to the, almighty.

And the night goes on,

The girl crush plays on.

The waves flow down,

Eating cheeseburgers and fooling around,

Anyway.

[P.s.- it never happened and I am happy it never did :)]

Leeza