GOD KNOWS I WAS AN ACCIDENT

I was an accident at birth

Not a coincidence

Or a destiny 

Or a miracle

My mother loves me because I am her child

And I despise my mother because I am her child

She doesn't deserve a daughter like me

I do not deserve a mother like her

We both love each other 

But our love is comes with conditions

That I have to be her child 

Only her child

I have lucked out on her

And she crosses her fingers whenever she sees my face

She would like to believe that she has won a lottery 

When I trample her expectations under my foot like a tragedy.. 

God knows I was an accident

He must have save evidences of my slim chances

But still I chanced myself out of her womb

She fed me there with hope, like she feeds me now ... 

I am sorry mother, I know I am not a great daughter

But I can't be anybody else

I am sorry mother, I wish I was a great daughter

A daughter you deserved

A daughter who could show you more love...